Tuesday, November 18, 2014

While I Was Away... Set A Fire Deep in My Soul

Best Chicago attractions: A top-down view of Navy Pier belies the logo-T insanity below.
Photo credit - Chicago Attractions
Update 1: I moved from the beautiful mountains and valleys in Pennsylvania to the toll-littered, highly-taxed, tornado-playground, mostly flat land, and a real ice box in the winter place called Illinois. And it is really as windy as people say, and yes, a certain section of Chicago has a high crime rate. Still, I can't deny Illinois this credit, downtown Chicago is beautiful. And really, Chicago springs life. A river runs under the street. The Chicago Fire has helped to change the face of the city making it one of the most beautiful places to visit in the US. The history is rich. So many things happened here and are happening here. The Navy Pier and River Walk are beautiful.

Update 2: My stepfather fell, broke his hip, learned how to walk again, fell again and now he can't walk alone any more, and he developed an infection that took away his memory and sent him to death's door. The doctor told us he was dying. The hospital denied him water until my older sister had to raise her voice asking the nurses to feed him. It's now seven months. The infection is gone, his memory is back, and he is very much alive, but he uses a wheelchair.

Update 3: My stepson contracted a rare immunological illness that turned his immune system on itself, attacking his kidneys (MPGN). He could have died. It was that bad. No one knew/knows where the illness came from, but the only effective treatment  now is steroids. He's better now, though his kidneys are not functioning 100%. A full recovery is expected, we hope.
Update 4: I found a church last week and I learned two new gospel songs sang by Jesus Culture (see YouTube Set a Fire & Holy Spirt) that won't leave my head. While they played, I felt as though I should take my heart from inside me and just hand it to God to wipe it clean. I'm thinking about giving my life to God again. But, I'm not 100% percent committed yet. The pastor said, "God has a plan for" me. So, I need to spend time with God and let him show me the plan. If summer were still on this land, I would probably go into the wilderness like Moses and get my vision or the plan.

Thank you for commenting on Amany's poem over at Day Laughs Night Cries.  


31 comments:

  1. Peaches, so sorry for your stepfather and stepson, hope they are well now. You know, love gospel, if I was in America Id love to listen it, here there isnt any church where played it. Many kisses! xo

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  2. Peaches, I'm sorry for all the sadness and difficulties your family has experienced. As far as God is concerned, I find that the best way to "meet" him is to sit in a quiet room and open my Heart to Him. Or Her. I always see Christ in the kindnesses people perform. Moving to Illinois was very difficult for me, but I enjoyed a couple of trips to Chicago. I missed Maryland a lot.

    Love,
    Janie

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    1. Hi Janie, sometimes sitting at home is good, but I'm liking church again. I'll see where it leads me. Chicago is a place to discover irregardless of the toll fees.

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  3. Sorry to hear about your stepfather and stepson. But glad they are both doing better. There are always pluses and minuses to every place you can live.

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  4. Sorry that life isn't perfect right now. I like to say, "It can only get better!"

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    1. Susie, things are looking good. Getting better and better.

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  5. Wow. Lots going on with family. It really makes you count your blessings when the crisis is over, eh? It's so hard to remember to be grateful the rest of the time--so distracted by life--but it's imperative to love the sunshine while it's shining. I wish you warm thoughts in your windy city. Hope you've got some amazing down-feather gear.

    Unleashing the Dreamworld

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    1. Love your words. "..it's imperative to love the sunshine while it's shining. I wish you warm thoughts in your windy city. Hope you've got some amazing down-feather gear.
      My son has a down-feature, I do not.

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  6. Sorry life has been rough for you. Yes, God always has a plan. We all have to learn to trust it. Here's a big hug for you: HUG!

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  7. We visited Chicago and we were stunned at the cost- just the toll roads alone were about to break us! How do people afford to live there?

    Awesome about your stepfather pulling through (not awesome that he had to have good health to begin with, though). My mother-in-law was told by the hospital staff to stop feeding her special needs son, that he wasn't going to make it. She refused. It's been eight years now and he's still alive. Only God knows when our time is up.

    Prayers for clarity in your journey with God. I am a broken, constantly screwing up ding dong and God still keeps me in His fold. I'm eternally grateful that He puts up with so much BS from me.

    And prayers for you son. That's got to be a worry for you all.

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    1. *Bad health...not awesome that he had BAD health. See? I'm a ding dong!

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    2. Elizabeth, I guess everything grows on you. Just like having a newborn, you grow to accept it as part of your "being."

      Thanks for your words of encouragement.

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  8. Sorry to hear about your challenges.
    As the bible quote goes: "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven..."
    Some are happy times, others sad; some are productive while others seem wasteful; some inspire peace and others bring pain.
    I think we have to roll with the punches...
    Take care.

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    1. Michelle, thanks for writing this a prompt for my next post on Day Laughs Night Cries website. "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven..."

      I'll "roll with the punches."

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  9. So sorry about your stepfather and stepson. Your family has been through the wringer.

    That boardwalk is beautiful.

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  10. dear peaches,

    though i was sorry to hear about your stepfather and stepson, i did find god in this post. his presence is always there with you and your family to help and guide you.

    take care

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  11. Wishing your family well.

    Having lived in Illinois for a year, it does grow on you. :)

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    1. Thanks for the wishes. Illinois "does grow on you."

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  12. Wow I'm just glad both men survived. Moving can be tough but it's great finding positive things in your new home.

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    1. Thanks, Sheena-kay, there are many positives.

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  13. Peaches, I totally missed this post. So much has happened to you and your family, but through it all, God obviously has had His hand on all of you. I know He has a plan for our lives and your plan in an excellent one. Devote the time to Him and allow Him to lead you in the path you should go. I know you won't regret it. Hugs to you and yours.

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    1. Heeding to your words, Joy, and to "His."

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  14. Oh my gosh! Your poor stepfather and stepson! I hope your stepson recovers fully. And best of luck with your move. It can take a while to settle into a whole new state.

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    1. Keeping my fingers crossed for a fast and full recovery.

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  15. I'm sorry I haven't visited in a while, Peaches. Can only say it's been challenging. Then I read your post and am truly humbled. OMG, what you've been through. My heart goes out to you and your family. I hope your stepson recovers fully soon. Peaches, during the many extra years I have on you, I've learned this: God is always with you.

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  16. Wishing you a very happy & Prosperous New Year ..Thanks for all the support! Keep writing! Keep lighting!…BEST PRAYERS FOR FUTURE!!

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